7 months ago I gave birth to my little angel,Austin Charles Brumble, at 3:18pm. He weighed 7lbs 8oz and was 21 inches long. The most exciting day of my life and I would do it countless times if I could have him back. Pain, tears, head in the pillow, etc., I would take it all on again and again if I could have him with me today. I know he's happy and playing with the other angels in heaven. I also know that God is taking better care of him than I ever could. But it doesn't take the pain away that Brian and I have everyday. Pain that so many people say will eventually go away, but I still don't believe that. I know in my heart that it will get easier, but the pain you experience with the loss of a child is a kind of pain that you can't describe, unless you've experienced it. I continue to think of how he would look today, and how big he would be. The hardest part for me is to see other people with babies that are close to the age Austin would be. I see them and my heart drops every time. Its almost like the wind is taken out of you. That pain will be with Brian and I for the rest of our lives. Nothing will make that go away, EVER.
Baby Boy.....Mommy and Daddy love you and miss you so much!