Thursday, April 29, 2010

Stay Motivated

I've had a rough couple of days. Schools ending so I have been stressed with last minute assignments and trying to study for my finals. I'm currently back in school pursuing my middle mathematics certification. However, after this semester I'm learning that I love more complex mathematics than the Geometry and Middle School study plans. I guess my advisor is gonna think I'm crazy because now I want to move to the High School curriculum. Guess that's why we take classes to figure this stuff out along the way.

My husband and I actually got some good news Tuesday, despite all my stress. He was promoted to manager of his store. Which means a pretty good salary increase, but A LOT of hours at work. I am so excited for him. He has been working towards this for a while now. We've had some bad luck the last few months, so anything good to help us keep moving forward I'll take it.

We still and always will miss baby Austin more and more. The next few months are gonna get harder. Mother's day, Father's day, Brian's Birthday, the beach week... So many things we should be excited about, things we had planned to do with Austin, well the excitement just isn't there. We've made it this far, which isn't as long as most people in our position, but being strong is not a choice, its a daily act for us both.

Well that's all I got today. Still trying to figure out how to make my page more appealing and creative. In due time....


Sunday, April 25, 2010

My first blog

I was hesitant at first to start my own blog, however after reading a friends, I decided that it was time to let the world know what is/and does go on in my life daily.

My husband Brian and I just recently lost our baby boy, Austin Charles Brumble, to what they call SIDS. He was a happy, healthy little boy that gave us so much happiness and excitement, that its just painful to understand why GOD took our precious baby boy away. Not a day goes by that we don't think of precious baby Austin and wonder what our life would be like if he was still with us.

He was his daddy from head to toe. However, he did have my Blue eyes and fair skin, but everything else about him was all from his daddy. He was a true Lil' Brumble as we called him! He was my whole heart and kept me on my toes all day long. I can still remember him crying because he wanted his mommy to hold him. Not just anyone could settle him, it was just me. As soon as I would pick him up he would give me that beautiful smile and just relax. Its amazing how babies know who their mommy's are and how a mommy can make everything better.

I was fortunate to stay at home with him. Brian and I both agreed that daycare was not where we wanted to send him. Not that we are against daycare, but that we both wanted Austin to be at home for the first year, to keep him out of the doctors office with sniffles and colds that most infants experience due to daycare and other infants they are around. I was blessed that God allowed me to be a stay-at-home mom and that Brian was willing to sacrifice his sanity for both Austin and I. There were times I thought we were both gonna break, but we managed to make it and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.

Well that's all I got right now. I promise to keep posting blogs as much as I can. I've decided that it will be a good way for me to see my progress and write about my journey. I've been keeping up with a couple of parents who have lost their child in the same way that we lost our sweet little Austin. I want to be able to read through my posts and see how I've grown from now til whenever that day is..... God Bless everyone and I hope to find guidance through the help of so many others who have experienced the loss of a child as Brian and I have!