Monday, June 21, 2010

Not what we wanted

Well the news I was hoping to share with everyone was that Brian got the Sales Rep position with the company he works for in the Kinston area, which meant that we would be headed home...aka Greenville, NC. We where both so excited and he actually had the position until the final day of the interview process when we learned the company's HR department wanted another guy. We both cried, but have realized that Greenville is not where we are suppose to go at this time. I also had a job offer on the table at the school I coach Volleyball at, but also learned on the same day Brian did, that I wasn't the number one candidate. Came in very close at number 2, but just wasn't the person they wanted. More tears where shed, not because we didn't get the positions, but were hoping something good would come our way in 2010. Its been a pretty rough year, and we continue to get punched with bad news from all angles in our lives. However, we are both very strong individuals and we will continue to keep pressing forward in hopes that whats meant to happen will. We have to keep believing that something good is coming our way...... God we still continue to put it all in your hands!

My quotes I look to for guidance in times of adversity......

"Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go threw it, or work around it. " ~~ Michael Jordan


Monday, June 14, 2010

For Brian

We are still waiting to hear about our hush hush news. We should definitely know by Wednesday if its a yes or no. I think we are both getting impatient. We want this so bad, and we have to wait. We know God's path for us is getting a little brighter, we are just ready to know for sure if its what we have been praying for. Either way, if its not the news we would like to hear, we are ok with that and will continue to pray that we get it one day.

On another note....
Everyone please pray for Brian as the next 2 months are gonna be a tough one for him. Father's day is approaching(June 20th), our 2 year anniversary, and what would have been Austin's 8th month with us (June 21st). He's had a rough couple of days. And I know all to well what he's feeling with father's day approaching. I pray for God to hold his hands a little tighter as he faces father's day with out Austin. Brian is not a man to show a lot of emotions, so when I see him break, I know he is hurting. He is also gonna celebrate his 27th birthday on July 21st, which would have been Austin's 9th month with us. Please help lift him up in your prayers, he's gonna need all he can get.

Once we hear about our "news" I will be sure to tell everyone. We are very excited, and pray its gonna be a reality very very soon!


Monday, June 7, 2010

The News

I know some of you are itching for me to leak out our good news, however I have to keep it to myself for a few more days. We will know by Friday afternoon if its a yes or no. Its pretty big news for Brian and I. Like I said in my other post, Change is not always my strong point. I'm scared to death. I'm a planner and don't really care for surprises, but this surprise will be exactly what we have been praying for.... Brian has been praying for this for a long long time; I've been praying for this a little over a year. Friday, get here please!!!!!!! :-)


Sunday, June 6, 2010

4 Months Ago...

Four months ago we said good bye to our sweet baby boy. God needed him, for reasons we do not understand. I was at the pool Friday and Saturday, and there where these little boys playing with their daddy. All I could do was wonder what Austin would have been like had we had him the opportunity to see him grow into the age of those young boys. I know God helps keep me strong in those situations. And I know the parents of those boys thought I was a crazy lady, because I kept staring at them. Good thing I had sunglasses on.... Or else their mom might have asked me if I had a problem. I find myself in that situation a lot. I can not help but think about how life would be so different if Austin was still here with us. I miss him more and more everyday!

Friday, June 4, 2010

A sense of Joy

The world is a difficult place. My world especially it seems like the last few days. I've been struggling with what has been thrown at me. However, It is in these times that I try my hardest to dig deep inside my heart and let God help guide me. There has been so much going on, that I've been letting it get the best of me. When I woke up this morning I had a sense of joy (definitely God's doing). Brian and I received some pretty exciting news earlier this week, but instead of leaning on each other and being rationale, we have been knocking each other down and letting the devil control our emotions. I can't leak out the news just yet, but I will know more by the end of the day. However I can tell you this, God is answering our prayers and opening doors that we have been dreaming about for a long time. Yesterday I said a prayer, and ask God to hold my hand a little tighter. I needed him to help me with this decision. He was listening, I know he was, because this morning I was in a different state of mind. I'm putting my faith in God. He is helping me learn to embrace that change is good for the soul. He would not have brought us to this path, if he didn't think Brian and I could handle it. I know that, way down deep in my heart. As Isaiah 41:10 says, "...so do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

Austin keep shinning on mommy and daddy. We know your cheering for us, and learning from the greatest supporter of all.... GOD!