Thinking

I'm up pretty late tonight. Actually its 12:38am, so I guess its early morning to some people. I have a lot on my mind. Just thinking of the next few weeks that will lead us to meeting our new little baby boy. We've got his name finally. Andrew David Brumble is expected to arrive on May 27th, 2011. I say all the time I'm ready for him to make his appearance, but deep down I know I'm scared to death. I've begun to think about his older brother Austin more and more these last few weeks. My father-in-law and I had a long conversation tonight about little Austin and how we still don't understand why he was taken away from us so soon. I can tell the anxiety in everyone is starting to kick in. We are all nervous, scared, and excited at the same time. I know Andrew is going to bring that sunshine back into our lives that we lost when Austin passed away. However, we all are human, and to say no one is scared to death would be an understatement. How long will Andrew be with us? How long is God's plan for our family to be together? These are just a few of the questions that run through my mind continuously everyday. I'm scared to death of what the future holds. All I can do is pray that God allows me a smooth and healthy delivery. I know I have to put it all in HIS hands, and I do, but I'm not gonna say that I'm not scared.

KELLIE